Been a while

It's been a while that I didn't post anything in my blog. Well, my friend told me that it's lame my blog always post something desperate. It's true that my blog is fulled with negative aura. Hahaha. Maybe this is the place where I show the sadness which I didn't show in the public.

So far, there's no happy things happen in this month. I hope happy things will happen soon. I'm really looking forward of those, my babe. It's so ironic that some of my friends have planned to go on a vacation either oversea or local while I have to spend my Christmas in my grandma's house. No Internet connection for 2 days and say goodbye to my lovely bed.

Till now, my holiday is used for Face+book, movies and also drama. I feel so shame that I had promised myself to study for this holiday. Damn it, I need to move my fat-ass body. My belly is getting bigger and more round. I need to start study, my brain is getting rusted.

This year is about to end soon. I think it's time for me to make a list about what I want to do for the next year. Maybe a better handwritting? (that won't happen at all)
Maybe a slimmer body size? ( If i got a worse appetite )
4 FLAT!!!!!! That's what I want to have for next year!!!! ( This is something unusual if I really get it)

Whatever I hope is useless if I didn't put any effort in it. So let's do our best to make 2011 the best year for everyone.

The beginning of my holiday

My holidays has started with an unforgettable memory. I went to a camp special for standard 5 and 6 in my former primary school. This is the very first time I go to a camp as a committee members. I was so enjoyed in the whole program though my voice has became so SEXY.

I have expected that is not easy to handle 16 students with only 2 persons. But thank god that the students in my group were not that naughty. The camp leaders who all are UKM former students did a lot of hard work just to make the camp goes as smooth as they can.

Through these 2 days, I have learnt a lot. Kids are really something irritated but on the other hand, they can be very cute. This makes me sound like someone who's already a father. It was very tired though fun is everywhere.

A lot of things I want to share but words can no longer help me to express myself. It's very sad that I can't attend myself for the next year camp program. But I will do whatever I can do participate in this kind of program. Though I get sore throat and lost my voice partially even my cellphone has spoiled due to my careless, but what I gained are far much than the lost.

Thanks to the kids and those camp leaders who gave me a chance to learn.

Lie

I have just finished a movie call LIAR GAME. It's nice and we can learn a lot of things through this.

Everyone is born with the most generous heart to this world. Innocent and kind are the good values we all had once. With the pass of time and experience, everything has changed. The environment we stay and the education we get also influenced us.

As time pass, even children nowadays lie. They even know that the police nowadays are not like what the book describes. They try to do things which we prohibit them. Just key in some words in youtube and you can see tons of those videos. It's so heart-breaking.

Lie, inside the lie may lie a truth. Yet every truth that's a lie in it. We want others to tell us the truth. But our self tell lie to others. We doubt what we been told, yet we want what we tell being accepted.

It's kind of ironic that everyone tells lie. What important is whether it's lie or truth, you just have to take it. Strengthen your heart with experience and skills can only help you to stay alive in this world.

I thought

Whenever I started to feel like want to pass up on something, there's things that appear and stop that thought.

Whenever I started to think that no one can help me and my world is going to finish, there's somethings that come out and lend me a hand.

I have started to believe that God does exist and doing his jobs well. I can sense that there's luck in my life.

Maybe it's just like the old said, 'When he shuts your door, one of them will be opened'.

I greatly thank to those who help me when I really need one. I really hope my life can just go on like this.

wealth and health

We are living in the kind of world where money come first. We work so hard just to enjoy a life which we need no to think about of money. We give away the time we use for exercise. We also sleep lesser just to finish the work.

But the health which all of us so care has given away to get wealth in return. Does this worth enough?

Many of us think it's worth. When we ask those young who full with enthusiasm, they will say their health still in very good shape. It's okay to get sick sometimes. But when we ask those retiree, they will regret and say what they missed in their life is health.

To me, these two things is just a vice versa. You need wealth to get health but you need also health to get wealth. The main thing is, which one will you set priority to.

A story about toy

I have just finished the ' Toy's Story 3'. Yeah I know that I'm a way too late. After the movie, I got a lot of things going around my mind. I wonder what happen if my toys really are alive.

I had a lot of toys once. Power Rangers' megasaur and some guy's toys. I have no memory now about where my toys are. If they were alive, I bet they will hate me very much because I never show any appreciation.

Even a toy which have no soul will feel sad if being abandoned by its owner. Imagine if you were being abandoned by someone who spend the time with you.

Maybe it's time to grow up. We already know that there's one day that we will separate with the one who close to us. We just have to continue our life. A new life is needed and we can't just stay with the shadow we left behind. Be strong and that's the only solution.

Just like the end of the movie of Toy Story. Woody and his friends found the new place that they belong to. Andy moves forward to his new college life. That's how our life will go.

One day, that's the day we will go through the same things.

Look through

I have a new hair cut lately. Since that day, everyone has started to ask me why I shave my hair. Many of them even thought that I got some big problems. The reason I cut my hair is just as the same they keep theirs. We no need any reason to cut or keep our hair.

But honestly, the only and main reason I cut my hair like this is to remind myself. Remind me about something bad I have done. Even it has passed for quite some days, but the outcome is not something small.

I always answer them that I have looked through the meaning of life. It's so ironic that I'm just 18 and have started to talk like an old hag.

Human is creature that will change and adapt themselves with the environment. I have changed just to follow this theory.