Saturday, June 26, 2010
I can no longer tell which is the truth
I don't know, I don't know why. Maybe you really is that open-minded and still can act like nothing happen. Maybe you need my help, that's why you still so good to me. I don't know and really don't want to think of it. I feel so uneasy when you leave me by myself and do your own thing. I feel so happy when you call or text me and ask me questions. But don't only come to me when you need my help. I really don't know what I am to you. A life buoy?
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
My life
We got our own life to live with and everyone is different and unique. Mine is just simple and easy. Not a good looking dude so I don't have a lot of girls screaming and chasing me from behind. Not a rich kid so I no need to scare burglar to enter my house or being kidnapped by someone. That's my life.
It's so ordinary and simple. Between the ordinary and simple, I found happiness and enjoyment. I'm not a hot dude, but I got a lot of gorgeous hotties friends with me. I'm not the rich one, but the money I have is enough for me to enjoy my life.
My life is simple. Every time when I pass by a mirror, I'll look at it and say to myself, I'm NOT THAT BAD, WHY I', STILL SINGLE? Funny right, when you hear that from the mouth of me. It's just a way I use to keep myself confident. LOL
Every time I look at my cell phone contact, I mumble, WHO SHOULD I sms WITH? It's so ironic that I end up with no reply from the one I send sms. It's normal because everyone is so busy with their own business.
That's how my life is. Wondering why I'm still willing to live on. Maybe it's so simple, I just want to know how my life will change and I'm willing to experience every moment though it may be a worst one.
It's so ordinary and simple. Between the ordinary and simple, I found happiness and enjoyment. I'm not a hot dude, but I got a lot of gorgeous hotties friends with me. I'm not the rich one, but the money I have is enough for me to enjoy my life.
My life is simple. Every time when I pass by a mirror, I'll look at it and say to myself, I'm NOT THAT BAD, WHY I', STILL SINGLE? Funny right, when you hear that from the mouth of me. It's just a way I use to keep myself confident. LOL
Every time I look at my cell phone contact, I mumble, WHO SHOULD I sms WITH? It's so ironic that I end up with no reply from the one I send sms. It's normal because everyone is so busy with their own business.
That's how my life is. Wondering why I'm still willing to live on. Maybe it's so simple, I just want to know how my life will change and I'm willing to experience every moment though it may be a worst one.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
MY favourite quote is ' regretless is better than sadness' and I always follow it whenever I do or decide something. But this time, I really feel like I DON'T WANT SADNESS ANYMORE. Loneliness make me lost my mind and did something sad to me. I slept at 12 midnight and woke up at 2.30 morning to watch the stupid football match. I text her and said something I didn't plan to say it this fast.
My mind was out of control, my fingers were following my heart and I fell into you.
It needs reason to like someone? I like my parents because they are my parents. I like my friends because they are my friends. I like you, because you are who you are and it's my heart's fault which make me like you.
We just remain the same, as friend maybe is the best way for us. Maybe.........
Maybe you will read this post, but please don't misunderstand anything. It's not your fault or mine. It's just I got no that kind of YUAN to be with you. I blame no one and I thank you for made me awake from my dream.
My mind was out of control, my fingers were following my heart and I fell into you.
It needs reason to like someone? I like my parents because they are my parents. I like my friends because they are my friends. I like you, because you are who you are and it's my heart's fault which make me like you.
We just remain the same, as friend maybe is the best way for us. Maybe.........
Maybe you will read this post, but please don't misunderstand anything. It's not your fault or mine. It's just I got no that kind of YUAN to be with you. I blame no one and I thank you for made me awake from my dream.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Hope or just illusion
They say it might be the very first hope to me. I say it's just another illusion the demon give me to depress my life.
Initially, I can't get that illusion because I got no feeling towards you. As time passed, I finally realised it's real. You are just that lovely to me and make me want to give you all my care to you. You hair, it's that sweet and nice. You hands, they are so soft and weak.
Is it hope you give me? Or I mistook your kindness as hope?
I dare not to dream of it. I dare not to think of it. I only dare to appreciate the moment we share and the relationship we have.
To be honest, I really wish it's hope rather than illusion. But my sixth sense told me that I will only get failure again.
Initially, I can't get that illusion because I got no feeling towards you. As time passed, I finally realised it's real. You are just that lovely to me and make me want to give you all my care to you. You hair, it's that sweet and nice. You hands, they are so soft and weak.
Is it hope you give me? Or I mistook your kindness as hope?
I dare not to dream of it. I dare not to think of it. I only dare to appreciate the moment we share and the relationship we have.
To be honest, I really wish it's hope rather than illusion. But my sixth sense told me that I will only get failure again.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Change to better
Today, there are some changes in my class. Those who applied for change stream or class have gained what they wished for. There are 7 people in my class have change to their respective classes. May San and Ka Neng are one of the 7. Wish they do their best in the class and don't miss me so much. *Think too much*
We always make change so that it come out better than the previous one. Change to better not worse is what we hope and wish for. However, do you really think it will turn out as what you wish? I will say SOMETIMES. We can't always get what we want as we are not the one who decides everything.
When the god shut one of your door, there will be another open one waiting for you. That's the life we all have. Give and take concept which always happen in our daily life. So, just do your best when you have decide something and don't ever complain or regret of it.
We always make change so that it come out better than the previous one. Change to better not worse is what we hope and wish for. However, do you really think it will turn out as what you wish? I will say SOMETIMES. We can't always get what we want as we are not the one who decides everything.
When the god shut one of your door, there will be another open one waiting for you. That's the life we all have. Give and take concept which always happen in our daily life. So, just do your best when you have decide something and don't ever complain or regret of it.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Life in Kajang High School
It's just the third week I'm in Kajang High, but I already can make a conclusion for my form 6 life. My form 6 life is just surrounded by jungle and ants. It's so ironic that this kind of place is just too perfect for biology students like me. *shaking my head and sighing*
I'm still the joker in the class and the noise-amplifier just like who I am in the past 11 years. Thanks to all my classmates who tolerate with me. V^-^V
The teachers are all too nice. Up till now, there's still none of them go mad because of our noisiness. However, there's teacher who doesn't know how to teach or I should say too fresh in term of experience. *wonder what the school trying to do with my STPM result*
Last but not least, I'm sure my weight will gain in no time because KFC n Pizza Hut are too near to us. Damn it, I had 3 times of fast foot in this 2 weeks. Moreover, I have spent my money like how I use the tap water. All thanks to the STRATEGY LOCATION.
Stress is coming and I know I'll be very busy start from next month.
I'm still the joker in the class and the noise-amplifier just like who I am in the past 11 years. Thanks to all my classmates who tolerate with me. V^-^V
The teachers are all too nice. Up till now, there's still none of them go mad because of our noisiness. However, there's teacher who doesn't know how to teach or I should say too fresh in term of experience. *wonder what the school trying to do with my STPM result*
Last but not least, I'm sure my weight will gain in no time because KFC n Pizza Hut are too near to us. Damn it, I had 3 times of fast foot in this 2 weeks. Moreover, I have spent my money like how I use the tap water. All thanks to the STRATEGY LOCATION.
Stress is coming and I know I'll be very busy start from next month.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
If I were a bit richer than what I am now
It's all about money in my mind now. When will I get to be a rich and succeed white collar? How much can I earn in an hour? It's just money, money, and money.
Experience has made me know that money is everything in this this man-made hell. We can't survive with no money in our bank account or wallet. We can't do what we want or even have a dream if we are such a poor dude.
Many tell me that I'm too well-planned when it's come to my future. I have planned that when I should marry, how many kid I want to have, what school I want to let my kid study and many more. It's sound weird to everyone where you hear a 18 year old form 6 student who already planned these kind of things in his mind. But, the life and experience I have been through tell me that I should plan it as early as I can. Achieve it or not is another story but the plan should have in your mind since young.
Believe me, you would not want your kid to suffer what you having now and the regrets you may have when you were young. Money is just the everything and that everything is depends on money.
It's so ironic that I always wish I were born in a family which richer than what I'm having now. It's not a sin because everyone of us always want something better than what we have. I'm just sometimes disappoint with what I have. It's not that I don't like my family, it's just I want more than what my family can give me.
Experience has made me know that money is everything in this this man-made hell. We can't survive with no money in our bank account or wallet. We can't do what we want or even have a dream if we are such a poor dude.
Many tell me that I'm too well-planned when it's come to my future. I have planned that when I should marry, how many kid I want to have, what school I want to let my kid study and many more. It's sound weird to everyone where you hear a 18 year old form 6 student who already planned these kind of things in his mind. But, the life and experience I have been through tell me that I should plan it as early as I can. Achieve it or not is another story but the plan should have in your mind since young.
Believe me, you would not want your kid to suffer what you having now and the regrets you may have when you were young. Money is just the everything and that everything is depends on money.
It's so ironic that I always wish I were born in a family which richer than what I'm having now. It's not a sin because everyone of us always want something better than what we have. I'm just sometimes disappoint with what I have. It's not that I don't like my family, it's just I want more than what my family can give me.
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