I think I have get used to it

I finally get used to it. The time I have spent with you before is getting blur and eventually disappearing. Maybe this is what we called the time will alternate our feeling and mind.

Maybe what said by my friend is true. I was too serious that time. Well, everything is changed and it's time for me to take part in that change too.

Forgive my immature

Though I'm 18 now, but inside me is still a childish little boy. I'm as playful and naughty as a 8 year old kid. I like to joke around and do stupid stuffs.

Honestly, I had hurt a lot of people before without knowing it or even noticing. I really so sorry for my misbehaviour and stupidity.

Tan Chai Voon, sorry for that day incident.
Phoebe Chor, sorry for my rudeness.
Chin Wen Qi, sorry for my selfishness.
Jerry Lee, sorry for bullying you.
And to those whose name didn't mention here, I send my deeply apology.

SORRY

I hope I can do my best

Do my best to get the best.

That's one of my quotes. Lately, I have to deal with many things especially the school's coming exam. I'm again being moved by my teacher due to her supreme speech.

'Maybe I should change to Art stream'

This thought comes again into my mind. Damn. It's the third time. Why I always have to be hesitated even I have made a choice? Maybe I feel insecure of what I have chosen.


I have to do my best so that I can maintain the things and the feeling I want.

It's time to grow up and change.

LIFE..... Here I come.

I think I have keep telling this. People change as we gain experience and the pass of time. I always tell myself that I shouldn't be sad or frustrated when people around me are different from what I know.

I think I really can't treat this matter so easily when it's come to me. I do feel annoyed. I try to consult myself that it's not his or her fault. I try to get use to that change.

It's really a different story if we didn't deal that matter with our self.





Anyway, today is my happiest day....... Thanks to my dear........

Maybe it's really the time to let go. I don't think I can keep like this anymore. I feel so unwanted. Looking at every one's face, I feel like I can see some sort of words. 'YOU ARE NO NEEDED HERE, STEP OUT OF MY BUSINESS'.

Can you give me some places in your heart?
I just want you put more attention on me.

You can do that to stranger but not me.

I'm wondering can I really take this and treat it like nothing happen.

Looks like I can't. It's time I think. Time to put everything down from my heart.

I can't

I don't like people to interfere with my daily routine, my daily life. I don't my life suddenly being interfered by someone especially cousin, elder or stranger. I hate to share meal with my parents' friends. I don't like my cousins or elders to stay in my house for a long period.

I really hate. I'm not hate of them but is like my life is being disturbed. I can no longer have my original life back. I have to take care this or that so that they won't feel unpleasant.

Suddenly, I wonder how will I react when I have married. Oppps~~~ Thing's gone too far.

It's quite tired to keep looking at you. But I really wonder what are you doing. People say it's not worth to do somethings which you can gain nothing. I say it's not me to decide it. I can only looking at you and appreciate the time we still call each other as friend.