当恶魔成人时

今天是我的18岁生日，也是我妈十八年前的受难日。和往常一样，我的生日都是自己过。但，今年就有点纳闷，无聊。以前，都是在学校过，虽然没有什么礼物，而且还要挨揍，但却是过得开心。今年生日落在周末，生日前，还以为能与一班人去度过这一天，但最后却什么都没有。有点悲。

在［非死不可］祝福我的，还蛮多的，但祝福语就很草率。电话祝福我的，感谢你们。到我家来的，我感激...（可以哭吗...lol）。认识的，不认识的，很熟的，不熟的，我都感谢你们的祝语。感谢那些我常欺负，但还是记得我的。感谢那些我与你的交情不怎么的，但还是祝福我的。感谢那些在当着兵的，却还是想起我的。

今年，没有所谓的礼物，但却多了感动的祝福。今年，没有那么多人与我度过生日，但却多了很多人记得我。今年，有了人生第一个蛋糕，却没人唱生日歌。但，我仍然感谢你们。

你没有祝福我，是我看不开，还是你忘了？你的短讯中没祝福，是你太急，还是你要我提醒？

１８了，不觉得有什么大改变，没多皱纹，没腰酸背痛，也没变有钱。只是觉得从今天起，我做什么都得三思而后行，因为一不小心就要吃（政府的nasi lemak lo)。

愿望嘛，也没什么，就是以后爸妈能记得我的生日，以后不用自己过生日就好了，还是有朋友在身边最好。

When the DEMON is being revived.

Today went to Putrajaya International Convension Centre for JPA interview. It was a tired trip because with a full formal attire, I was so hot on the way to there. I was set in the noon interview session which start at 3p.m but I was arrived there at 1.15p.m. I was so boring because nothing can I do. I saw a lot of nerdy there but gorgeous as well. They brought the co-curricular cerificates as much as they can but I don't the panels will give a damn care on them. The interview group of mine consisted 5 people including myself. I'm the only boy and the only one who takes Tourism. The lovely chinese girl who sat beside me so surprised when I used Mandarin to talk with her. The panels were so nice and friendly but one of them thought I'm a Malay. ( What the fuck, in one hour, two people thought I'm a Malay). They asked this and that. So I answered : BLA BLA BLA..... Now I'm siting in my room, facing my computer and waiting for the reply from JPA. The result will out at the third week of May. What a long time to wait. I study form 6 while waiting for their reply.

First time in my life

I feel very nervous in this momment. I'm going to attend an interview session tomorrow but right now, my nervous is getting stonger and has conquered my body. I can't sleep well and so scare of what I will say during the interview. I'm very good when dealing with my friends and teachers but this time, it's the JPA staffs. I don't know what can I do to keep the nervous away but what I must do now is think of what I have to say soon. I have prepared it well physically but not mentally. I don't what will happen tomorrow but I hope everything will get fine soon.

Wallet-bleeding

Today went to Kajang to buy some formal wears for interview on Wednesday. I have bought a formal slack and a formal shoe. It was a damn boring trip because my stupid friend has left me alone to go Penang. I have total spent RM150 for those things. My wallet is still bleeding even right now also. Damn it, do this interview really that important? Remember don't wish my luck because I no need luck to get the scholarship. ( Trying to be cool but I'm actually ain't cool)

Gosh

The date when I have to attend the JPA's interview is coming soon. Three days more and I will go to Putrajaya to be interviewed by those staffs. Up till now, the documents I need haven't I complete yet. I have started to get nervous straight to my spine. I have started to wonder what kind of things I should say in front of them. What excuse I should give to support myself in choosing the Tourism course and what can I do to give them an extreme impression. I think is time for me to write some scripts and practise in front the mirror.

思念，是一种病？

朋友说我的"部落"太过"鸡肠"。今天就来点新的，别的。思念是一种病，张震岳唱出我的心声，带出我的想念。可笑吧，连我这种时常搞得别人不悦的人也会想念他人。今年的年头，各路朋友都各忙各的。有的，当兵去。有的，干活儿去。也有的，闷去。我心中的那份思念，想念全都涌了出来。平时欺负的，好想念。平时聊开的，好思念。如今，那份感觉更强了。我想你，你懂吗？其实，懂不懂，明不明都无所谓。只要你在孤单时，偶尔想起你有过我这样的朋友就行了。

What a day

Today went to Metro Point. The main purpose we actually wanna do is to discuss the interview things but in the end it's ended up with Sushi King for lunch and Baskin Robin for desert. It was my first time to have Baskin Robin, it was just normal ice cream but with more flavours. Went to Metro Plaza to buy something for my friend. I wish to buy her a handbag but the price is OH MY GOD. So I decided to buy a school bag which she will need it. It's the mix of pink and grey and I hope she will like it when she get it. Just hope she will get it soon.